I went for my JC consult today and came back shaken. I went up. I am not going to dwell on it. My JC Consultant Meagan, was really really nice about it too. She was calm and she made me think. She showed me my charts from before and was telling me that I can do it. I did it once and now have to find the way back to the light.
Ok. I know there is hope because I have done it before. Now I am sitting here thinking how did I do it last time. What changed and then changed back? Consultant Meagan (CM) also told me that I have to recall or revert back to those good habits.
I realise that one habit that I made before was journalling about it from time to time, be truthful to myself and accounting for the "cheats" that I made or did.
I am taking this positively. This time, I have a real goal to acheive...To fit into a size 12 dress for my wedding reception back home and Nepal at the end of the year. So I have approximately 9 months to do it.
So as they say...Calm down, and {press restart button} . HERE WE GO. AGAIN.