Life in Mono...

Waiting in Line...

We were in line waiting to get on a roller coaster ride. He was wearing a Green T-Shirt and brown cargo shorts. The queue was very long and we were moving slowly. I was so excited to get on the ride and I was telling him that we should definitely sit at the front to get the full experience. He was saying that this is his first time getting on a ride and he was nervous.

The line was moving pretty quickly and I was reading the newspaper and saw a childhood friend in front of it. The headline reads "Ping Ping Boy Wonder". I knew who it was and was telling him that I know this guy from school and that he use to like me.

The line is moving again. This time we were standing in front of this Giant Kid slide and there were lifeguards looking after kids and there was this boy who jumped down the slide too quick and was told off by one of the lifeguards.

The line moved again. This time we were chatting with friends who were waiting in line with us and I was standing behind him and hugging him. He kissed my arm and I could feel the "LOVE" that he felt for me.

THEN.....BEEP BEEEP.

Ok a couple of things...

1. "HE" in my dreams is not M. I did not get M's vibe in this dream. "HE" in this dream had this Malay Guy feel to it. See I use to date a few Malay boys and "HE" definitely feels like one of them. I do not know which one because I could not remember his face.
2. "PING PING BOY WONDER" was my junior in school. Yes he did use to like me and we did go out on one date and that was it

While I was getting ready for work this morning, I kept trying to see what was the main meaning to my dreams. I do believe that dreams are meant to tell you something about yourself. I kept thinking of the main theme of the dream. It was the Love and affectionate that "HE" was giving me.

See...I have come to terms that M is not the affectionate type. Don't get me wrong. I know he loves me but I sometimes miss that affection that you get as a couple. Like hugging without being asked or holding my hands while walking down the street. M do not do any of these. In fact I can feel that he is uncomfortable when he holds my hand when we walk down the street. Never did when we were going out and definitely not now. Not that I am complaining. I know he loves me and would do anything for me but some how I think subconsciously, I have not accepted that. *sigh*

I think its time to start writing down my dreams in my dreams journal again. I use to do that a few years back. Writing down everything that I can remember just after waking up from bed. There are somethings that you just can not share on this blog. :*)

Flooded school...

Another Tsunami deam again. This time in a school. I think I was a teacher. All I can remember is the waves being bigger then ever and I was in a school with some girls and a couple of dogs. I was screaming for them to hold on to something while the big waves came in.

After the first wave, I looked outside and there were these big big container ships all crashed into one another. I remember one of the girls screaming at me warning me another one is coming in and for me to hold on to something. I called for another guy downstairs through a hole and asked if he and his kids are ok and if they can climb to where we are because we were higher.

I don't think I will stop having these tsunami dreams. I wonder what it means?

Zombie Nation...

I had this dream yesterday that involves my friends from my old school. One of them I have never seen in almost 11 years and another one for a couple of years.

"The dream as taking place at my old high school. It was almost empty as kids had already left for the day. I was in class with S and apperently he was my boyfriend. I was telling S that I am scared of the Zombies that have been going around the school and I did not want to walk home alone. S told me to be brave and that he would walk me home.
As we walked down the stairs, another friend of mine K who is already a zombie was trying to grab and eat everyone that goes down the stairs. People where using umbrellas to force him away and I did not have one. I told S that we should use the other stairs and he said no and said that he was brave enough to go down the stairs where K was. I told him not to offend K as we went down the stairs.
I coudn't remember what happen next but I remember pulling S of K as they were in a fight. I tried to distract K by telling him about things from the past and how funny it was then. K let S go and then...
I WOKE UP :*)"

Another one in  my dream book.

Beautiful Church...

Not again... If you read my blog long enough you know that I have been getting weird Tsunami dreams eversince it happened on Boxing Day 2004. I have been documenting about it on my blog. That is if I can remember it. So last night it happened again. This time it was not as freakky as the others. But the emotions are there...

"I was at the foot of this mountain doing my thing when I saw the water on the beach started to recede so I quickly yelled out to everyone to run to the top of the mountain. Amongst those people running I noticed there was this blind lady and her dog. I went up to the lady saying that I will help her and her dog up the mountain the dog refuses to go with us but I carried him up the mountain and we sat and saw the waves crashing in. The dog was scared and I was trying not to let it go. We were sitting outside this beautiful church where there was a stencil picture of Mother Mary looking down on us smiling."

Then I woke up. I lay in bed trying to remember everything so that I could document the dream. This is the best that I can remember. I remember breathing heavily when I woke up becuase I was so scared and I remember feeling scared that the dog might run away from the lady.

I noticed somethings about these reoccuring dreams that I have, THERE IS ALWAYS A DOG in the dream. Maybe its because I have longed for a dog for a loooong time. I miss my dogs at home and I hope to get one sometime soon. Maybe its time to visit the RSPCA. :*) and get a small yappy one that could fit under my arm.

Tsunami Dream Again???

I keep having this re occurring dreams about tsunami. Ever since it happened in Boxing Day of last year I have this feeling that its going to happen all over again. Last night?s dream felt so real. The water, the sounds and the ground shaking everything felt so real.

I was at the beach with mom, Nana and Chris. Nana and I decided to go on our own further down the beach so we told mom that we would be a while. After 30 minutes of walking I heard people screaming. There it was a HUGE wave. I grabbed Nana?s hand and ran inland towards a house. I somehow knew that by hiding under the stairs would do the trick. It did and after what felt like ages Nana and I went out to search for Mom and Chris. We were walking amongst dead people, people who are alive and injured people. All of a sudden I heard Toby?s bell. I looked under the wood and there she was, I picked her up and covered her in a blanket. She was not hurt or anything, just scared. Then I saw it again, I quickly told Nana to run and hide. We were running and we hid under the stairs again. This time I saw a plane, which was trying to land at the airport near by. It was trying to fight the strong wind from the tsunami. After that we went on searching for mom. I suddenly remembered that I had my mobile with me and I called mom?s number and a Chinese boy picked it up and told me, in Chinese, that Mom was at a hotel near by. I was so relief that mom was safe. So Nana and I went to the hotel only to see that Mom was cooking lunch for us.

Its so weird but it sure felt real. I even heard people screaming and it was as if there was someone shouting right beside my ears. *shivers*

monodreams: tsunami and so

i realise that i haven't been jotting down my dreams for a long time. maybe its because that i don't want to remember them coz they are really freaky. last nite i had a dream about the tsunami thingie that happened to Asia lately. here is what i remember of it.

"i was walking down the beach with a few friends. irawan was walking behind me and we seemed happy and was chatting as usual. then suddenly i had the sudden urge to run. so i told everyone to run to the nearest high rise building. i was going up the stairs and there was a family on the first floor. i told them to RUN UPSTAIRS as quickly as you can. then suddenly there was water everywhere. i looked out the balcony and saw the waves come crashing in. irawan told me not to stand near the window but i did it anyway. then suddenly the room that we were in was filled with water. but we weren't in any danger. as i look out the window i saw a black dog swimming for his life and i remember crying for the dog "

i cant remember anything more after that. this is so freaky. i think i watch too much news but i cant help it. everytime i see or read the news i get goosebumps and i start to tear up.

and the past few days i have been hearing sickening news that girls and women are being preyed on. people collection donations for their own selfish selves and children are being kidnap only to be sold in the black market. these people are the ones that should have died or gone missing. it makes me sick just hearing about how these people are taking advantage of the situation just to satisfy their greed. SICK SICK SICK!!