Life in Mono...

Dig me a hole please...

*Picture courtesy of Ben*

My friend Ben has put up pictures of all my classmates when we were in our final year of High School. See if you can spot me in this one? Gee... I did not change much. Can you believe that this picture was taken 11 years ago? It brings back so many memories. FACT: I dated the two boys in this pic. One lasted a few months and the other I think for about a year. One is a Doctor now and the other I am not quite sure what he is doing at the moment. One broke my heart and I broke the other one's heart. I can be such a bitch sometimes.

I am still in touch with the both of them and is still good friends with them. Some people can not understand how can I be friends with my exes but I say WE CAN IF WE WANT TO. I still want to be their friend not because I still have feelings for them but because they are tied to my past and to tell you the truth, I think when the picture was taken, I was at my happiest. If there is such a thing called the Time Machine and it works, this is the point in time that I want to go back to. Where everything is uncomplicated and we can blame our immaturity when things goes wrong.

I am not having a great week this week. Its not work. Work is fine. Work is great actually. The Big Fish is really easy going these past few weeks. Even got a pay rise from him too. Its life outside work that's bugging me.

I don't know what's wrong with it. I think I need time alone away from everybody else and just not fuss over everyone. I need to find myself and sort some things out. I think the stress of moving and organising everything is catching up with me. This week, I wake up in the morning feeling like I have not slept through the night. I feel tired. Its not that I have been sleeping late. I sleep early every night. In fact for the past few days, I have been sleeping at 830pm. I don't know. Things at home is not going great either. Arguments and disagreement. The other day I had a heated fight with M and Walter got up from his bed and tried to hide in our bedroom with the cats. They, the cats, were already in there when we stared.

I know I do not usually rant about things that is going on at home, but I thought, this is my blog and it is a place where I want document my life and this I think is a turning point in my life. I need a break from life. I need a break from being me. The me who is bitchy, defensive, who says everything that comes to her mind and not care about other people's feeling. The me who does things impulsively and needs to be in control of everything around her Well.... I AM SICK OF BEING ME.

Well I do get bouts like this every few years and its usually time for me to sit and reflect things around me. I need to work on things and be alone. So , anyone got a shovel that I could borrow? I hope to come of this alive. Don't worry too much about me. I just need to be by myself in the corner. :*)

Picking bones...

I have a bone to pick with Telstra. Who is Telstra? Well, they are the largest telecom company in Australia. Anyway, when we moved, we couldn't connect our internet with our usual internet provider because THEY DID NOT SERVICE THE AREA, which I think is  bull crap. So the only provider that serviced the area is Telstra. GREAT. I would prefer not to go with them but we do not have any choice. So I made calls and arrange for them to hook up a line to our home and also the internet.

The setting up was a breeze so I was quite happy. THEN.... 2 weeks later, our home phone seems to have a problem. When I called the phone number that they gave me, say 1234 5678, it just rang out. The home phone did not ring at all. So I used the home phone to ring my mobile and it came up with a different number, say 8765 4321, I was shocked. How, why, when? So off I went, calling the help line at 730pm. Guess what? THEY OPEN DURING BUSINESS hours of 7am to 7pm. Errrmmmm.....shouldn't it be 24 hours!!??

So I thought this would not effect my internet because it just uses the phone line. BUT NOOOO.... I have to get the phone glitch sorted out first before I could use my internet. The Faults department said that they would be able to fix it within 24 hours from my call. That time period expired last night at 7pm and they have still not fixed it yet. Someone called me up at 6pm last night telling me that everything will be fixed by tomorrow (today). I told her that my partner is getting fed-up with all of this running around and she said close of business day tomorrow. SURE. I will believe it when I see it.

We all know that I will have to pay my bills no matter if they get it fixed or not. As soon as I know another internet provider is servicing our area, I will make that switch and if we get Telstra calling us back trying to get our business back, I will refer them to this post!!!

Total Bull Crap.

Printed on...

I made this on Thursday. Its the Lino block that I carved on Thursday night and stamped on a Moleskine notebook. This was my second try. The first one went down badly.  The past few days I have been having all these ideas playing around in my head and I have not enough time to make it come to live. I wish I don't have to sleep or that I have tonnes of money to play around with and I that I do not have to work full time. One day, one day I will get there.

Icky

Not feeling well. Period Pains and major headache. Why am I still at work? Hey its Monday and I am a good girl. But I want to go home now. boo...

Friggin Hot...

I couldn't do anything yesterday and Saturday. It was too friggin hot. I could not even craft, go on the Internet and basically do anything. We did go out to see friends and that was so hard for me becuase I had to go out in the sun and endure the heat!!

Toby was a smart one, she slept in the Bathroom all day because that was the only place not effected by the heat!!

The heat...

A hot gush of wind woke me up today. I felt like I was living in an oven with all the windows to the front closed to keep the heat and hot wind out of the house. Poor Toby was feeling uneasy and was looking for a cool spot all day. Poor thing.

On the bright side, I manage to make PJ pants with some stash of fabric that I bought back home. I took pictures of it and will post it tomorrow or something. Its too hot to sit by the computer.

I am complaining again aren't I?

Stupid Things...

I was driving to and from Joondalup today on the freeway and saw some idiotic things people do while driving.

• A man driving a sedan with his kid at the back with the windows down going at about 100Kph!!! The poor kid was I think crying at the back.
• A truck driver READING a freaking magazine while DRIVING and his eyes was not on the road.
• A mom driving a small car with KIDS at the back zig zaging through traffic.
• A man reading the paper in the car while waiting for the traffic lights to change colour.
• A young girl on the phone WHILE trying to park her car.
• Feli amazed by all the stupid things people do and still not get killed while trying to stay really far far away from these people.

Its amazing... I don't know what to say. Why?

The call...

On the way to work this morning, walked by the truck/ute that had that poor dog in it. Unfortunately he was still in there. I took a peek inside to see if he was ok and when he saw me he wagged his tail. Well... at least he survived another night of horrible wind. I took down the number plate and saved it on my mobile phone.

As I was waiting for the bus, I texted my sister to see if it was the right thing to do and she said just give it a try. So after breakfast this morning, I called RSPCA and spoke to a guy at the office. I explained the situation and you know what he said?

"Unfortunately, if the owner of the dog lets the dog out from the back of the ute from time to time and the ute is covered and the dog is sheltered we can not do anything. We do not agree with this but the Animal welfare law states that if the dog gets enough exercise and is sheltered we can not do anything. Our hands are tied. Sorry mate, but thanks for your concern. We need people like you on the look out."

I was shocked. I nearly cried. I can not do anything and the law can not do anything. *sigh*. I then told the guy, well if you can not do anything about it then thats ok. I plan to walk by that Ute everyday to check on the dog and at least say Hi to him.

Its one of...

...those days again where I feel unmotivated, tired, sick, want to sleep and lazy. I blame it on the rain. It rained down on me today on the way to work. It didn't feel good. I was freezing and was shivering. Damn.

Anyways, after not going to the gym for 2 days I feel unmotivated. Again I blame the rain and the alcohol that I had last Satuday. It was the ECU International Students' Party that I go every semester. This semester was a little bit different. Why? Because for the first time I didn't know anyone there. I think its time for me to retire. I am getting to old for this. I manage to snap a picture of the night before I was too drunk to do anything. Please excuse the excited BF on the right. It was suppose to be just us girls in the picture. I don't understand why does that. Everytime I want to take a picture with him he makes it so difficult but when he is not wanted in the picture, he spoils it for us. See... I never get drunk. This is the second time in my whole entire life that I got drunk and couldn't remember anything from the night before. I couldn't remember how I got up the stairs to our apartment and how I manage to break my heels. Yes I broke my heels. Luckily I was quite smart to bring my Uggs along because I knew my toes would die in the cold. As far as I can remember, I did not puke or did anything that would bite me in the ass. I lucky that M was there. I remember I was talking a lot, about what I don't know. All I know now is that it was really bad the next morning. Arggghhh... I am not proud of it either!!

Gone AWOL...

Guess what?? The Big Fish went to Malaysia and didn't tell the Office about his trip!!! WTF?? He was so angry at me yesterday for not asking questions when he is there and now he is GONE when I need him the most!!! Grrrr...... Who cares?

The Boy and I made a pact. We are so sick and tired of getting blamed for the clients faults that we are logging all the outside work and made up a new system where we track down all our outbound mails. I made an Excel spread sheet of where and to whom the mail is going to. I need to find a way to do things at work more efficiently.

I also taught The Boy to screen my calls. I told him that everyday I will set a time for me to not answer any calls, but the Big Fish's calls of course, and just concentrate on doing my work. No dealing with the clients, real estate agents and other settlement agents. Just peace and quiet. We did a test run and it was fun. I did a lot of catching up. Coz I am the admin, the accountant, the book keeper, the settlement agent and the secretary of the place. I should ask for a pay rise. Maybe I should.